why

This week I went to a funeral and again it reminded me of how short life can be and how death doesn't always come after a long life sometimes its just a huge surprise that sneaks up on you and catches you unaware. Though you may not be ready the end could come tomorrow so whats that mean to me? Well i think that when someone realizes this they just have to make each day count just a little more, squeeze just a few more laughs and good memories into each hour of every day. If I could have one wish right now i would wish for a few days to spend with all my friends a few days to laugh and joke around. Maybe at the beach or another day were we all hang out and make food and play games together like we did that one night. Instead though Im stuck here alone in this house wishing time would fly by till i get to have fun again with that special somone. Times like this make me wonder what could i have done differently to have prevented me from wishing these precious moments away because thats just not right we have so little time you shouldnt have to spend it wishing it would fly by so you can get to the better times.

Questions

So today i installed Windows Seven on my computer. Way worth it such an awesome operating system. With its new taskbar and custom preferences it makes my computer look so awesome. So four more days and i will be headed back across state again :) Dont get me wrong i love being home with my family but theres just something about being in your own appartment and be in charge of myself that i love plus my bf is there. For some reason i have fallen so deep this time that even a few hours apart makes me wish for him to come over and hang out with me. Makes me wonder is this what forever feels like how does one know if its true if it can last for years because marriage is forever. Wish there was some way to see into the future and know for sure if this is what im meant to do with my life.

Life
What is life but what you make it. Something that can have its highs and lows, something that can make you laugh cry and just wanna scream in frustration. Lately my life has been filled with this great joy i found someone who i feel could be the one the person who you share all your secrets with the one who is there to help you up when you fall. Before now i always wondered if there was something in me that couldn't form a real relationship since i would find all these guys but none ever were right something would cause problems or they just were not meant for the future. Hopefully now all those problems will be layed to rest and i can start my plan in life.